I was talking to both Emma and Tasha about transplants yesterday and if it that was a path I wanted to take. I had decided that no, transplant was not the way to go for me. I was perfectly set on that choice until Kayne was born. Now I am at the exact opposite of it. I want to grab onto any and all hope of life that I can get. I want to see him grow up. I want to see him take his first steps, hear his first word, I want to see him on his first day of school, see him in his first school play, meet his first girlfriend. So many firsts and so much I want to do with him. I'm not ready to give that up, and I don't think I ever will be. This little guy has given me back my reason to fight again. I don't want to be just a picture and just stories, I want him to have his own memories of me, I want to be there every step of way with him, I want to see my godson grow up into an amazing young man. Ok I'm getting really emotional now again but it's funny how much he has changed my outlook on life. How much he has made me realise that I don't want to give up without a fight. So once a date comes through for Newcastle I will go. There are three possible outcomes, 1. They want to list me. 2. I am still too healthy. 3.I am almost ready to be listed but not just yet and they will review me in 6 months. If they say 1 I will jump on the list. If they say 2 or 3 then bloody YAY!!!!!! and I will come home and work on keeping myself as far as possible from that list. I'm hoping that they say 2 but if they don't I think I'll be ok with that.
Anyway I don't really know the point of all that but it made me feel slightly better. I guess that's the reason I blog, to get things out of my head and just there. So they become more real. So am off now to lay on te sofa and watch brat camp in a bit. YAY!
Love and huggles
Neeshy
xxx
Wednesday, October 25, 2006
Monday, October 23, 2006
YAY!!!!!
Very excited today. Three reasons. First being we found out that the Saw 3 that we saw was in fact not saw 3. Just that the person had mislabeled the film. So YAY! Me and Stephen are going to see it on Friday night now. Can't wait as it actually looks very good. had me bouncing on the sofa last night when I seen the ad for it hehe. Second. The british public have a semi decent comedy taste. Life of Brian was voted top comedy movie ever. Some of the top 25 were just not meant to be there, American pie and meet the parents, both funny but not funny enough to warrent a top 25 spot. Also blues brothers were only number 6. Alot of pissed off people here last night when seeing that hehe. Thirdly Torchwood has started!!!! I actually thought it was very good! Something about Jack though that just kinda makes you go 'ohhhhhhhh' and become addicted. Its not good i'm already addicted to two tv shows (lost and prision break!!).
Anyways moving on, huge news on the front of the halo movie which I have been waiting for since they even suggested it. Universal studios have pulled funding but MS are now funding it. Apparntly this is a big deal. I can't really see it but hey. It better not push the release date back *sulks* So with that and H3 and the other two halo games on the way I shall no doubt convert back to being a halo addict. Not a good thing me thinks but it cannot be helped. Ah well.
Also yesterday was a really sad day for formula one. Schumacher retired. He finished his last ever F1 race. Me and mum love him. He is an amazing racing driver and should have won this years title but had rotten luck with his cars. He has had an amazing career and has been one of the greatest racing drivers F1 has ever seen. He will be missed next season. But that gave me an idea for mum's birthday prezzie so YAY! She's always wanted a ferrarri shirt so next time i'm in Belfast I'm gonna call in and get her one. YAY. Dad reckons he should get credit for my idea as he put the F1 on but nope mine hehe.
Oh and onto the wonderful family from england. EEP. Catherine didn't realise I was being Godmother. She was extremly pissed to say the least. Cue arguement between entire family. EEP. I 'addictdly' dropped my O2 on her leg to get her to shut the hell up. Even my granny told her to stop being so spoiled hehe. Oh and the one thing I've been worrying about. Jamie meeting Kayne went OK. He only poked him gently but then was very nice. Possibly because me and Damien were sitting either side of him giving evil grown up 'don't you dare be an evil little buggar' looks. So if it worked I don't care. Kayne is still doing really well so all YAY's for that. Taking Catherine up to see him this afternoon after school YAY!
Ok rather alot of nothingness up there hmm oh well.
Neeshy
xxx
Anyways moving on, huge news on the front of the halo movie which I have been waiting for since they even suggested it. Universal studios have pulled funding but MS are now funding it. Apparntly this is a big deal. I can't really see it but hey. It better not push the release date back *sulks* So with that and H3 and the other two halo games on the way I shall no doubt convert back to being a halo addict. Not a good thing me thinks but it cannot be helped. Ah well.
Also yesterday was a really sad day for formula one. Schumacher retired. He finished his last ever F1 race. Me and mum love him. He is an amazing racing driver and should have won this years title but had rotten luck with his cars. He has had an amazing career and has been one of the greatest racing drivers F1 has ever seen. He will be missed next season. But that gave me an idea for mum's birthday prezzie so YAY! She's always wanted a ferrarri shirt so next time i'm in Belfast I'm gonna call in and get her one. YAY. Dad reckons he should get credit for my idea as he put the F1 on but nope mine hehe.
Oh and onto the wonderful family from england. EEP. Catherine didn't realise I was being Godmother. She was extremly pissed to say the least. Cue arguement between entire family. EEP. I 'addictdly' dropped my O2 on her leg to get her to shut the hell up. Even my granny told her to stop being so spoiled hehe. Oh and the one thing I've been worrying about. Jamie meeting Kayne went OK. He only poked him gently but then was very nice. Possibly because me and Damien were sitting either side of him giving evil grown up 'don't you dare be an evil little buggar' looks. So if it worked I don't care. Kayne is still doing really well so all YAY's for that. Taking Catherine up to see him this afternoon after school YAY!
Ok rather alot of nothingness up there hmm oh well.
Neeshy
xxx
Saturday, October 21, 2006
Poppin tabs like sweeties....
I'm talking about brufon and paracatemol. Normally they sort out the gernally annoying twingy pains I have in my chest. Yesterday and today however they are like eating smarties. I moved back onto amatriptlin last night as I really couldn't sleep. They aren't good to be taking but nothing else would give me any relief. Think I may need to call out of hours GP later today if this doesnt settle as it's getting worse as the day goes on. Not fun. I'm also realllly short of breath at the moment. Am thinking some more IV's are due but don't really want to resort to them again so soon. I know that this time last year I could hardly keep stable without them but it feels like a huge step backwards for me, which is to be honest very scary. Have tried every oral tablet under the sun (well almost) and they had very little or no effect. Ot makes no sense because I am sensitive to them. Maybe it's just a case of there is too much infection to clear up? I don't know but I want to get back on top of my lungs again. I know having my lungs healthy is impossible. But I would like a little more time between infections again. I finish Iv's and either don't feel any better and if I do I feel bad again in a few days. Oh dear this is turning into a winge. Not my intention sorry!
On other happy news just back from seeing Kayne. He was really awake today, by the time we were leaving he still hadn't fallen asleep. No bad thing as it means he might sleep longer through the night. His health visitor/midwife (don't know which she is) was really pleased with him and how he's coming along so big YAY's. His jaundice has settled down a bit today as well which is uber good. Mum and granny were out this morning getting all his little holy medals and found a prayer teddy. A few years ago my cousin in america sent these teddy's home. They are the cutest things ever and when your squeeze them they say a little baby prayer in a kids voice. Everyone loves them. So granny and granda hunted for them when they were out in august but none where to be found anywhere. So mum seen them today and went yay! It's a little yellow ducky and he kicks ass! So that is now safely in his little cot thingi. Oh and incase you havn't noticed by now, this blog will probably be filled with lots of baby stuff as i'm addicted to Kayne. Plus it's nice to have it written down and the ton of pictures for when he is a bit older.
Um no other news, my life is rather baby and lung orientated at the moment lol. Take care
Neeshy
xxx
On other happy news just back from seeing Kayne. He was really awake today, by the time we were leaving he still hadn't fallen asleep. No bad thing as it means he might sleep longer through the night. His health visitor/midwife (don't know which she is) was really pleased with him and how he's coming along so big YAY's. His jaundice has settled down a bit today as well which is uber good. Mum and granny were out this morning getting all his little holy medals and found a prayer teddy. A few years ago my cousin in america sent these teddy's home. They are the cutest things ever and when your squeeze them they say a little baby prayer in a kids voice. Everyone loves them. So granny and granda hunted for them when they were out in august but none where to be found anywhere. So mum seen them today and went yay! It's a little yellow ducky and he kicks ass! So that is now safely in his little cot thingi. Oh and incase you havn't noticed by now, this blog will probably be filled with lots of baby stuff as i'm addicted to Kayne. Plus it's nice to have it written down and the ton of pictures for when he is a bit older.
Um no other news, my life is rather baby and lung orientated at the moment lol. Take care
Neeshy
xxx
Thursday, October 19, 2006
Shattered...
Just a short entry as i'm headin to bed. I've just spent all night making slide shows for Orlaith for her family in canada. On the up side got lots more pics of Kayne. So while doing all the other ones made another of some of the new pictures hehe. Seen him for agessssss today which rocked and yay he loves me. He took his bottle from me and not from his mummy or daddy. We reckon it's because my arms are tiny and it would be more comfy for him to lay in. Either way YAY! But he is being an angel. We all love him to bits. I have claimed him! He is mine, anyone who wants him has to go through me. hehe. Um no other news bar the fact I passed an ICT test today, was a mock paper of the one we will do in January. Marked the exact same way and I got almost full marks. YAY! Anyways off to bed now night e night.
Neeshy xxxx
Neeshy xxxx
Wednesday, October 18, 2006
Overdrive!
See by tonight I thought, well rather mum thought I should have calmed down. Um no. See I should explain. Today has been fab. Yesterday was just amazning. So the combination of both has left me slightly hyper active and daydreamy. So I got to sleep last night about 12ish after frantically emailing pictures of Kayne to family (which I still have more to do tonight lol). Got up this morning, loaded lots more onto my phone and went to school. Spent an hour in history, which worryingly I done very well in. So after being given a lolly pop (strawberry) by our teacher we went merrily to lunch (its great gettin bribed to pay attention). Lunch was spent proudly showing off my godson to the entire 6th form study! Then physics, in which i got alot of stick from Mr L as he thinks it's hilarious I am Kayne's godmother. I can see his point, i am very dippy and lack common sense. But I love him and I'm sane (almost) so I'm going to be a good godmother and spoil him. YAY! Kayne however is screwed with his godparents. We are both somewhat hyper, dippy, and like to be very silly. But we will keep him on the straight and narrow. Oh I also threatned my little cousin Jamie who lives in england and is coming on monday with his mum and dad, that if he hurts Kayne he will be pasted to a wall so fast he won't know what's hit him. I should explain for my violence here, he is 9, he painted my dog and my hair last year, this summer he tried to lift ellie by her feet and dangle her upside down. I therefore do not want to take any chances. Anyways, physics was fun. We revised a bit. Me and Nat spent most of it Aww'ing over Kayne. Then home to grans for dinner. Best part was still to come. Damien and Orlaith wanted granda's chips over so gran asked would I leave them over. YAY!!!!!!! I got to watch Kayne while they had dinner in peace. He slept and I cuddled and oh'd and ah'd at him. He is amazing. I love him to bits and he kept scrunching his wee nose up, it was uber cute!! SO YAY! Oh and dad came home from Amsterdam and brought me the biggest bag of the bestest sweeties ever, which have given me a sugar high which just rocks. So muchly yayness for today and for Kayne.
Lots of cuddles
Neeshy
xx
Edit: montage thingi of some pics of Kayne, mostly made to send a link to family and stuff.
Lots of cuddles
Neeshy
xx
Edit: montage thingi of some pics of Kayne, mostly made to send a link to family and stuff.
Tuesday, October 17, 2006
YAYY!!!
Ok so I think I may just be about to OD on blogging but I have to write this down. Baby Kayne Damien Ponsonby is my God son!!!!!!!!!! So in Orlaiths room, I sat with baby in my arms with the tears tripping me, Damien was crying and my granny was crying too. Was very lovely! I adore him. He rocks socks and is just so placid. Excuse the ton of photos but I am showing him to anyone who will look, even if they wont i'll make them hehe. Anyways very short as I'm shattered. Take care all
God mother Neeshy!!
xxx
Cuteset baby ever!!
Hurrah got to see baby Kayne (its pronounced Kain but trust us Irish to make it look completly different hehe) today. Went to gran's to pick up a few bits and granda was heading over then so i decided I would really need to go too. We walked as getting parked there is a nightmare and their house is only across the road. But by the time I got there I was shattered. But off to see baby. Oh my god he really is the cutest thing ever!!!! I may be biased but trust me he is (shall put photo's up later) He just slept most of the day. He did manage to wakin when his dad came back upstairs. Daddy's boy me thinks. And we got a smile. YAY! He is the complete image of his dad it's soo cute. Orlaith is shattered, she didn't get to sleep till 5am and lovely nurses got her up at 6am to feed Kayne. He wasn't even hungry, but no apparntly you are meant to feed them every four hours hungry or not. Um what happened to feeding them when they wanted it and not when they didn't want it? The midwife has also called him a girl every time she walked into the room. Yes the blue clothes really are a sure sign that he is a she. I really worry about that lot! Anyway back to the cutest baby ever, he and mum are getting home tommorow and I get to see him again tonight with mum to take lots of pictures with the camera. YAY!
On the converse front, I went hunting today for them. No shop in the dam town has the newborn sizes in. So I just got him lots more clothes and shall get him converse when they have his size :)
Um bar that not much to report. If there is my head is too tired to think of it so I'm off to sleep for a while. Been awake since 6am. Eep!
Love n cuddles to all.
Neeshy
xxx
On the converse front, I went hunting today for them. No shop in the dam town has the newborn sizes in. So I just got him lots more clothes and shall get him converse when they have his size :)
Um bar that not much to report. If there is my head is too tired to think of it so I'm off to sleep for a while. Been awake since 6am. Eep!
Love n cuddles to all.
Neeshy
xxx
Monday, October 16, 2006
Ridiclously overexcited!!!
YAY!!!!!!! Baby-cousin-who-is-yet-to-be-named has arrived!!!!!! Now yesterday I wrote a very long rambling blog entry about how much he was taking his time. Literally just after I finished it Orlaith (my auntie) was taken into hospital. YAY!!!!!! So after 75 hours, 13 baths and lots of tears baby made his entrance at 1.45 this morning. YAY!!! So owing to the fact this is only 5 hours later, they have probably given him his name (which i think they had pretty much decided on) until then I am calling him by what I was told he was going to be called if he turned out to be a boy. Kian James Ponsonby. I love it. Very cute. Now his lordship has decided to grace us with his presence after being very lazy and stubborn (just like his bloody father already, watch out world :|), I can finally buy him converse. YAY! So I intend to finish skool, head up the town and get him some converse. I may just accidently find some shoes for me while i'm there too :p But anyways, YAY! Damien (my uncle) was in floods of tears to my granny when he was phoning to let us all know. She told him off and said he better not have been crying the whole night cz when he cries, he is quite useless. At his wedding he cried, took him 20 minutes to say his vows! But all that aside, he will make a fab daddy! The really nice thing is that Orlaith sister Celia gave birth to a baby boy last week, Dermaid or some silly irish spelling of Dermot anyways. So they will grow up together and be yayful! Ok I'm too overexcited and can't sleep and this is making no sense what so ever so i'm off back to be for an hour before I have to go to school and do some work. Personally I would much rather go to the hospital and see Kian but erm no not allowed. Dammit. I will no doubt be very huffy and sulky in classes today. Ah well. Sweet dreams all.
A way to over excited Neeshy
xxx
A way to over excited Neeshy
xxx
Friday, October 13, 2006
Well I'm sitting in the library in school writing this. Mostly because I have not really much to do. Bar my ICT coursework, which quite frankly I am so pissed off with. It takes ages. Is very pointless and I don't like it. Anyways. Not in the sixth form as it's packed, very few tables free and definatly no computers. So just in the off chance that I may have an inclination to do some ICT I have come to hide out here. It also stops people finding you and wanting to talk. I'm not relly in the mood to chat to many people today. Only very few people I actually want to talk to. Don't know why though. But I seem to be getting very annoyed when people come and jibber on, yes I know I can jibber on with the best of them, but today I don't feel like my usual listening self. Oh well. Am sure it will work itself out. So anyways. Form class. It is now officaly the best class ever. I was however deeply upset that my learning agreement wasn't on a pink sheet like most others, it was green :| horrible ickie green. Ok so not horrible and ickie but nowhere near as nice as pink. So I gave Mr White a very upset and hurt face and he went and got me a pink one. YAY! This does now mean that I have to get all my teachers to sign it. They also get to comment on it. Great. Lets see, talks to much, is never in class, oh and for physics is very dippy.
Speaking of physics hurrah I finally get it all. YAY! Mr L was very proud of me today. We did however spend the rest of the lessons throughing stress balls around the room. Yes very productive. Apparntly working out the speed of them. Well that was the excuse when the head of science walked in anyway hehe. Mondays are now being dedicated to experiments. He is however very concered that we may kill ourselves if this happens. I will most likely be the first to do so. I kept walking into the dam tables today. Very clumbsy mood.
Anyways, moving on. YAY for tonight. Going to Orla's and everyone is coming over. I can't wait. I've only seen Stephen and her all week. Well bar in school. So it was planned so we can quite simply bitch about guys! Great night. Ben and Jerry will of course feature in the evenings proceedings as will the new ton of chick flicks I ordered the other day. That is if they have arrived. They better have. Oh and we are being brill babysitters as well and letting orla's lil sister have her friends round. On the conditions that:
-They touch Ben and Jerry they accept the cosequences.
-They leave us alone and do not venture upstairs.
-They clean up their own mess and we will not be held responsible for any breakages/spillages that may occur downstairs.
We will however supply the food/films and general lovelynightinstuffness. So personally I think they are getting a very good deal. I meant what other babysitters lets you do that? hehe. So can't wait now YAY! We also have a lovely home waxing thingi hidden in orla's wardrobe and shall sneekily distract all the guys and then wax their legs :D This wasn't my idea. Though I do love it and shall be fully taking part. Stephen has had his waxed by me before and was a big baby. So we shall leave him alone. It's only fair really! Dee, Colin, Froggy and Connor however will not. YAY!
Anyways this has turned into a rather long, pointless and rambley post. Shows how much I realyl hate my ICT hehe.
Take care all.
Naoishe
xxx
Speaking of physics hurrah I finally get it all. YAY! Mr L was very proud of me today. We did however spend the rest of the lessons throughing stress balls around the room. Yes very productive. Apparntly working out the speed of them. Well that was the excuse when the head of science walked in anyway hehe. Mondays are now being dedicated to experiments. He is however very concered that we may kill ourselves if this happens. I will most likely be the first to do so. I kept walking into the dam tables today. Very clumbsy mood.
Anyways, moving on. YAY for tonight. Going to Orla's and everyone is coming over. I can't wait. I've only seen Stephen and her all week. Well bar in school. So it was planned so we can quite simply bitch about guys! Great night. Ben and Jerry will of course feature in the evenings proceedings as will the new ton of chick flicks I ordered the other day. That is if they have arrived. They better have. Oh and we are being brill babysitters as well and letting orla's lil sister have her friends round. On the conditions that:
-They touch Ben and Jerry they accept the cosequences.
-They leave us alone and do not venture upstairs.
-They clean up their own mess and we will not be held responsible for any breakages/spillages that may occur downstairs.
We will however supply the food/films and general lovelynightinstuffness. So personally I think they are getting a very good deal. I meant what other babysitters lets you do that? hehe. So can't wait now YAY! We also have a lovely home waxing thingi hidden in orla's wardrobe and shall sneekily distract all the guys and then wax their legs :D This wasn't my idea. Though I do love it and shall be fully taking part. Stephen has had his waxed by me before and was a big baby. So we shall leave him alone. It's only fair really! Dee, Colin, Froggy and Connor however will not. YAY!
Anyways this has turned into a rather long, pointless and rambley post. Shows how much I realyl hate my ICT hehe.
Take care all.
Naoishe
xxx
Tuesday, October 10, 2006
Teachers should know better...
Today has been pretty dam eventful to say the least. I'm glad most days aren't like this as I'm drained now and just want to sleep. But went in this morning early about 10ish to see my form teacher. Now this man must have a sixth sense to know if you are feeling down or just not yourself. So I got the thrid degree until I sat and talked to him for ages. He really helped and said if I ever needed him to just come see him. He also aragned for me to come back later after all my lessons to sort some stuff out. I left his room with rather red and puffy eyes. Its funny how he can get me to open up. He's the only teacher I have actually properly chatted to. So anyways off to First Aid it was um intresting to say the least. I think my first aid teacher thinks I am a disaster. Firstly he informed us that in two weeks we will be putting all this into practice. Outside. Now we are not known for our good weather. But he decided that even if it is raining we are still going out. Que alot of protests from the class and me sitting in the corner laughing lots. So I decided to inform him that unless he would like to take me straight to hospital afterwards I would not be going outside in the rain. This made stuck-up-pain-in-the-ass-loves-to-make-our-lives-a-misery teacher (which btw isn't the first aid guy, she is a skool teacher that is there to help him keep us under control) to tell me that oh yes I was going outside and I would be doing it. Um now I don't take kindly to people telling me what to do when it could effect my health, which duh going out in the rain for two hours would, so Becca and me got up, walked out (much to teachers protest, ie she yelled down the hall after us telling us we were in detantion HAH) to find either a VP, the Principal, a senior teacher and my form teacher to boot. So we found Mr White, he took us to the Principal, and both were horrified at what had just happened. So off we toodles back down to first aid room. And evil teacher was very nicely asked to step outside. Where she was given the third degree. Bless her she tried to say she didn't but knew she didn't stand a hope. So she has been told to leave me alone, I will not be going outside, and if she has any problems to go see the principal. Hah. Teachers by now should know not to challange me when it comes to me protecting myself. I will always win. I have the entire senior staff on my side. Always have since first year. So we went back in, and I very kindly explained to David (first aid man) that I wouldn't be going outside, and he was very lovely about it. So it has been moved to the sports hall instead as long as we clean up the fake blood. My class now love me hehe. No getting wet, having fuzzy hair and a ton of tantrums! But later on I crawled under a desk to pick up a bandage. Me being me and very dippy lifts my head rather fast while I was still under the desk. I hit the bottom sticky outty part rather hard. Bloody hell. It hurt. So we actually got to practise some proper first aid. Hurrah. I now have a rather lovely bump on my head.
After that was ICT. Now I was in a rather grumpy mood again but dam that class cheered me up. We ended up in the great debate over MSN and the internet. Now my teacher loves to wind us up by making very sexist remarks, he is totally not sexist but loves to get a rise out of us. So he said more females be on msn than guys. So for the first time ever we were allowed on msn in school. We sat and counted out how many of each sex we had on our list. Um mine ended up at 2:1 for guys;girls. Ahem. I tried to protest that it was not my fault. But nope didn't work. But by the time evryone was finished then it worked out that yes there were more guys using msn than girls. We were right and as we were right we got the rest of the lesson off. YAY! So lots of spinny round room on chair action was seen. As was lots of taking the piss out of our teacher and drawing on the board. It was quite possibly the best ICT lesson ever :D We were muchly hyper by the end of it. So by now my lessons were over. YAY! Back to Mr White and we sorted some crap out and I came home then in much more yayful mood. By the time I got home my dad thought I was high on drugs or something. I couldn't stop grinning. But GP an hour later brought an end to that. I can't take cipro any more. It is making me vomit and dizzy and just feel rather rotten. So I went down to see if he could give me anything else. Um no. They use cipro as a last resort. I eat those like candy :| So while down I got some more drugs, (saves me having to go down next week) But he decides that I really do need my flu jab on thrusday :| EEP!! I hate my flu jab. Stick me with any needle you so wish. Just no flu jab. It hurts. I'd almost have the one for my shoulder again over that (which I think I need again as it's in agony again grrr) So this year I will be going alone. Mum and dad are at work and I'm a big girl now and have decided to be brave. I will quite probably be in floods of tears but hey what can ya do. So Gp brought me back to earth and I left rather deflated to come home and find stephen waiting for me. YAY! I thought I wouldn't see him again till the weekend due to our manic work loads and him working but he took the evening off to come eat ben and jerrys with me and watch the last episode of prison break. YAY! I attempted to cook. Failed misserably. But at least I tried! But I'm going now to make pancakes (one of two things I can cook :D) and curl up on the sofa with him in front of the fire. YAY! Perfect night. Pancakes, stephen, ben and jerrys and a fire. So I am one very happy girl tonight and feel very contented hehe.
Love and cuddles
Neeshy
xxx
Oh random bit of info, did you know you aren't meant to have have paracatamol more than once or twice a week and you are meant to have very little broufen? I eat both like sweeties. Apparntly my liver will be pickiled. But it is doing ok so yay.
After that was ICT. Now I was in a rather grumpy mood again but dam that class cheered me up. We ended up in the great debate over MSN and the internet. Now my teacher loves to wind us up by making very sexist remarks, he is totally not sexist but loves to get a rise out of us. So he said more females be on msn than guys. So for the first time ever we were allowed on msn in school. We sat and counted out how many of each sex we had on our list. Um mine ended up at 2:1 for guys;girls. Ahem. I tried to protest that it was not my fault. But nope didn't work. But by the time evryone was finished then it worked out that yes there were more guys using msn than girls. We were right and as we were right we got the rest of the lesson off. YAY! So lots of spinny round room on chair action was seen. As was lots of taking the piss out of our teacher and drawing on the board. It was quite possibly the best ICT lesson ever :D We were muchly hyper by the end of it. So by now my lessons were over. YAY! Back to Mr White and we sorted some crap out and I came home then in much more yayful mood. By the time I got home my dad thought I was high on drugs or something. I couldn't stop grinning. But GP an hour later brought an end to that. I can't take cipro any more. It is making me vomit and dizzy and just feel rather rotten. So I went down to see if he could give me anything else. Um no. They use cipro as a last resort. I eat those like candy :| So while down I got some more drugs, (saves me having to go down next week) But he decides that I really do need my flu jab on thrusday :| EEP!! I hate my flu jab. Stick me with any needle you so wish. Just no flu jab. It hurts. I'd almost have the one for my shoulder again over that (which I think I need again as it's in agony again grrr) So this year I will be going alone. Mum and dad are at work and I'm a big girl now and have decided to be brave. I will quite probably be in floods of tears but hey what can ya do. So Gp brought me back to earth and I left rather deflated to come home and find stephen waiting for me. YAY! I thought I wouldn't see him again till the weekend due to our manic work loads and him working but he took the evening off to come eat ben and jerrys with me and watch the last episode of prison break. YAY! I attempted to cook. Failed misserably. But at least I tried! But I'm going now to make pancakes (one of two things I can cook :D) and curl up on the sofa with him in front of the fire. YAY! Perfect night. Pancakes, stephen, ben and jerrys and a fire. So I am one very happy girl tonight and feel very contented hehe.
Love and cuddles
Neeshy
xxx
Oh random bit of info, did you know you aren't meant to have have paracatamol more than once or twice a week and you are meant to have very little broufen? I eat both like sweeties. Apparntly my liver will be pickiled. But it is doing ok so yay.
Friday, October 06, 2006
Bestest sweetie ever goes to....
We have no clue. It was decided that because I wasn't in physics today that the sweetie debate should be put off until my return, as it wasn't fair to good old haribo. So YAY! I was pretty gutted this morning when I knew they would all be in physics having the best debate ever without me. So was more than chuffed when Natalie rang me during physics to tell me that I have not missed out so YAY! We do however get to watch The Holy Grail on monday, as no labs were set on fire, no-one electrocuted, and no killing of one another. Although there was a fair bit of messing around, walking into desks (normally my job) and laying on tables. So monday promises to be a lovely afternoon of physics and giggles, only with the added bonus of a film YAY!
Ok so I should explain why I was off. Last night started the escapade, coughed up quite a bit of blood, even for me. So my lovely mother deamed it fit to take me to the out of hours doctor. Now bless his cotton socks, he was very lovely and I was being very uncoporative. Mostly because I wanted to watch the rest of Lost in peace. Soo he told my mum exactly what I had previously told her (rest, no nebs, call CF team in the morning). He however decided to throw in, just for an added bonus, not to cough. Um yes I shall not cough all night when it's all I've done since I arrived at your office. Ok. I laughed my head off, coughed alot, then walked out. The coughing did get some looks of dissaprovement from him. Strange little doctor. Very nice. But strange! So this morning I got up, and felt, quite frankly like crap. I rang my CF team, who said to start orals and rest. Now normally I refuse to rest, I just can't rest when told to. But today I have little or no energy to do anything other that sit here and cough. My head is thumping, my head rate is going do lally, and I am very out of puff. Not a nice feeling when I only finished IV's on Monday. So as you can guess I am not a happy camper. But I intended to spend tonight with ben and jerry on the sofa watching lots of prison break with stephen and my parents. I'm hoping to bribe my lungs into being good. My form teacher rang to check how I was doing, and told me to treat my lungs like he treats his kids when they misbehave, not speak to them and send them to their room. Now I have two problems with that, my lungs do not take kindly to being ignored, and two they can't really be sent anywhere! So we have also decided that if they behave all week, then I can have Fred next weekend! So if the thought of having fred next week, watching prison break and ben and jerry don't work then I give up on the bribery front.
Now speaking of my form teacher, initially I thought I would hate him, mostly because he can be very scary. But I love him to bits and pieces. He is very wonderful and super involved. If I have to go home sick, he rings home later that day to check I'm ok, he also asks all my teachers for notes that I might have missed that day. He is also a very good form of physio as he has me laughing peremently. So YAY for form teacher!
Hmm bit random but that's how I'm feeling today so hehe. I'm heading to the sofa now to watch scrubs, and me and mum shall order dad and stephen about all night. YAY!
Love and cuddles
Neeshy
xxx
Ok so I should explain why I was off. Last night started the escapade, coughed up quite a bit of blood, even for me. So my lovely mother deamed it fit to take me to the out of hours doctor. Now bless his cotton socks, he was very lovely and I was being very uncoporative. Mostly because I wanted to watch the rest of Lost in peace. Soo he told my mum exactly what I had previously told her (rest, no nebs, call CF team in the morning). He however decided to throw in, just for an added bonus, not to cough. Um yes I shall not cough all night when it's all I've done since I arrived at your office. Ok. I laughed my head off, coughed alot, then walked out. The coughing did get some looks of dissaprovement from him. Strange little doctor. Very nice. But strange! So this morning I got up, and felt, quite frankly like crap. I rang my CF team, who said to start orals and rest. Now normally I refuse to rest, I just can't rest when told to. But today I have little or no energy to do anything other that sit here and cough. My head is thumping, my head rate is going do lally, and I am very out of puff. Not a nice feeling when I only finished IV's on Monday. So as you can guess I am not a happy camper. But I intended to spend tonight with ben and jerry on the sofa watching lots of prison break with stephen and my parents. I'm hoping to bribe my lungs into being good. My form teacher rang to check how I was doing, and told me to treat my lungs like he treats his kids when they misbehave, not speak to them and send them to their room. Now I have two problems with that, my lungs do not take kindly to being ignored, and two they can't really be sent anywhere! So we have also decided that if they behave all week, then I can have Fred next weekend! So if the thought of having fred next week, watching prison break and ben and jerry don't work then I give up on the bribery front.
Now speaking of my form teacher, initially I thought I would hate him, mostly because he can be very scary. But I love him to bits and pieces. He is very wonderful and super involved. If I have to go home sick, he rings home later that day to check I'm ok, he also asks all my teachers for notes that I might have missed that day. He is also a very good form of physio as he has me laughing peremently. So YAY for form teacher!
Hmm bit random but that's how I'm feeling today so hehe. I'm heading to the sofa now to watch scrubs, and me and mum shall order dad and stephen about all night. YAY!
Love and cuddles
Neeshy
xxx
Thursday, October 05, 2006
Deep and meaningfuls...
I've been chatting to an old friend of mine, we were at primary school together, but lost touch after moving to secondary school, as most people do. But it was nice to catch up today, to see how much we have both changed and both grown over the past 5 years. But on my msn personal comment it says 'Every relationship is messed up. What makes it perfect, is still wanting to be there'. Now I firmly believe this. I think all relationships have flaws, there will be no perfect relationship, they simpley do not exist. But he thinks they do. So it started a deep and meanighful, mostly about love and how it has affected and changed us both and what we think of it. Now me, I think love is the most simple, beautiful and pure thing that could exist. It makes the world turn, makes things worth doing, and makes all the hurt worthwile. Take me and cris for an example, I love him, simple as. But our relationship, is messed up. I won't go into it, but trust me it is. Now even after all the hurt we put each other through, neither of us would give up the good times we have together. Mostly because when we are together, we are perfect, two havles of a whole, call it whatever you wish, but it's good. I also think that without all the bad relationships and all the hurt, then when the right one comes along, we know that it is true, and pure, and right. That we know not to screw it up, to treat that person right. M however thinks that all relationships are black and white. They either work or don't. No maybes, no what if's. Simple as. If you get hurt, you run away. Love cannot mend mistakes, so once you screw up in a relationship that's it. For me that seems a pretty dam harsh way to see it, but everyone is entitled to their own thoughts and opinions.
So after the love bit, which kinda got me upset thinking about it. We got the meaning of life. Oh dude I was not ready for this one. I never will be, at least not any time soon. So, why are we here? What is our purpose in life? Honestly I have no clue what so ever. None. Nada. Ziltch. I'm kinda going with alot of different religions and a bit of science here too. I reckon we are all here to learn a lesson. Something that will make our souls better for learning it. I do not however think that there is one being up there that controls all, at least I don't want to think that, because if there is then he/she has a pretty sick mind. Yes I know you need the good too see the bad, but look around. The world is turning into a horror movie! People are getting killed daily, they start wars for stupid reasons, when actually the people living in the country are happier before the dam war! Kids are being killed in their schools, the one place in the world that is supposed to be for them and them alone to feel safe. Anyways, bit of a rant there, opps. I also don't think we were created, as a planet, as a universe, by a god or something. I don't however understand all the science theories either, they are not completly plausable. But I think it is a combination of both that brought this world and universe into existance. Ok moving on from that jabber, as reading it back it makes very little sense, but trust me it makes sense in my head.
On a complelty unrelated topic, my physics teacher rocks! We sat this morning and had the great debate over.... which was the best monty python film! Now there were some very radical views, which were quite plainly mad. People were saying the meaning of life. They quite clearly have no sense of humour or have not seen the other 3. So Mr Lafferty and I came to the conclusion that, The holy grial is the best. Only marginally. But still the best. No-one could ever compete with the Knights who say Ni. Or the french castle. It is not possible. Yes the life of brian has the bring out your dead scence, they paint on the walls, and the stoning. But not much else. And now for something completly different is funny, but not entirely brillant, unlike the previous two. It has the parrot scene and the lumberjack scene and thats about the height of it, none of the other bits have you in stiches falling off the sofa laughing. Hence The Holy Grail was crowned the king of all Monty Python films. So we are under the promise that if tommorow we do well in our experiment, ie not burn the place down or blow it up. Then on monday we can watch the Holy Grail. Sweets included. This then created a debate over the best sweetie. It got very heated, with people rulers getting chucked across the classroom, the bell went just in time. So no doubt tommorow that one shall be continued. I shall be bringing body armour. I am of course defending the fablous haribo. So naturally I shall win, but with stiff compition from Alice's 'trolli bugar thingis' as we call them. I was also tempted to throw in the fablous sweetie bobbles, but restrained myself as they really would think I was even more insane than they currently think. So all in all a very productive physics lesson. We do do some work in there, honestly, but most of the time it is just complete nonsense. Just the way we like it. He has however offered to give me a hand with all the work I have missed during our matching frees. So yay for that and yay for almost finishing topic one! Hurrah.
Oh dear I have waffled on slightly. Not my intention honestly. So I am going to find suitably pink and fablous body armour and to find a pretty pink scarf for fred (if I havn't told about fred in another blog then I shall do so tommorow or soonish)
Neeshy
xxx
So after the love bit, which kinda got me upset thinking about it. We got the meaning of life. Oh dude I was not ready for this one. I never will be, at least not any time soon. So, why are we here? What is our purpose in life? Honestly I have no clue what so ever. None. Nada. Ziltch. I'm kinda going with alot of different religions and a bit of science here too. I reckon we are all here to learn a lesson. Something that will make our souls better for learning it. I do not however think that there is one being up there that controls all, at least I don't want to think that, because if there is then he/she has a pretty sick mind. Yes I know you need the good too see the bad, but look around. The world is turning into a horror movie! People are getting killed daily, they start wars for stupid reasons, when actually the people living in the country are happier before the dam war! Kids are being killed in their schools, the one place in the world that is supposed to be for them and them alone to feel safe. Anyways, bit of a rant there, opps. I also don't think we were created, as a planet, as a universe, by a god or something. I don't however understand all the science theories either, they are not completly plausable. But I think it is a combination of both that brought this world and universe into existance. Ok moving on from that jabber, as reading it back it makes very little sense, but trust me it makes sense in my head.
On a complelty unrelated topic, my physics teacher rocks! We sat this morning and had the great debate over.... which was the best monty python film! Now there were some very radical views, which were quite plainly mad. People were saying the meaning of life. They quite clearly have no sense of humour or have not seen the other 3. So Mr Lafferty and I came to the conclusion that, The holy grial is the best. Only marginally. But still the best. No-one could ever compete with the Knights who say Ni. Or the french castle. It is not possible. Yes the life of brian has the bring out your dead scence, they paint on the walls, and the stoning. But not much else. And now for something completly different is funny, but not entirely brillant, unlike the previous two. It has the parrot scene and the lumberjack scene and thats about the height of it, none of the other bits have you in stiches falling off the sofa laughing. Hence The Holy Grail was crowned the king of all Monty Python films. So we are under the promise that if tommorow we do well in our experiment, ie not burn the place down or blow it up. Then on monday we can watch the Holy Grail. Sweets included. This then created a debate over the best sweetie. It got very heated, with people rulers getting chucked across the classroom, the bell went just in time. So no doubt tommorow that one shall be continued. I shall be bringing body armour. I am of course defending the fablous haribo. So naturally I shall win, but with stiff compition from Alice's 'trolli bugar thingis' as we call them. I was also tempted to throw in the fablous sweetie bobbles, but restrained myself as they really would think I was even more insane than they currently think. So all in all a very productive physics lesson. We do do some work in there, honestly, but most of the time it is just complete nonsense. Just the way we like it. He has however offered to give me a hand with all the work I have missed during our matching frees. So yay for that and yay for almost finishing topic one! Hurrah.
Oh dear I have waffled on slightly. Not my intention honestly. So I am going to find suitably pink and fablous body armour and to find a pretty pink scarf for fred (if I havn't told about fred in another blog then I shall do so tommorow or soonish)
Neeshy
xxx
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