Poppin tabs like sweeties....

I'm talking about brufon and paracatemol. Normally they sort out the gernally annoying twingy pains I have in my chest. Yesterday and today however they are like eating smarties. I moved back onto amatriptlin last night as I really couldn't sleep. They aren't good to be taking but nothing else would give me any relief. Think I may need to call out of hours GP later today if this doesnt settle as it's getting worse as the day goes on. Not fun. I'm also realllly short of breath at the moment. Am thinking some more IV's are due but don't really want to resort to them again so soon. I know that this time last year I could hardly keep stable without them but it feels like a huge step backwards for me, which is to be honest very scary. Have tried every oral tablet under the sun (well almost) and they had very little or no effect. Ot makes no sense because I am sensitive to them. Maybe it's just a case of there is too much infection to clear up? I don't know but I want to get back on top of my lungs again. I know having my lungs healthy is impossible. But I would like a little more time between infections again. I finish Iv's and either don't feel any better and if I do I feel bad again in a few days. Oh dear this is turning into a winge. Not my intention sorry!

On other happy news just back from seeing Kayne. He was really awake today, by the time we were leaving he still hadn't fallen asleep. No bad thing as it means he might sleep longer through the night. His health visitor/midwife (don't know which she is) was really pleased with him and how he's coming along so big YAY's. His jaundice has settled down a bit today as well which is uber good. Mum and granny were out this morning getting all his little holy medals and found a prayer teddy. A few years ago my cousin in america sent these teddy's home. They are the cutest things ever and when your squeeze them they say a little baby prayer in a kids voice. Everyone loves them. So granny and granda hunted for them when they were out in august but none where to be found anywhere. So mum seen them today and went yay! It's a little yellow ducky and he kicks ass! So that is now safely in his little cot thingi. Oh and incase you havn't noticed by now, this blog will probably be filled with lots of baby stuff as i'm addicted to Kayne. Plus it's nice to have it written down and the ton of pictures for when he is a bit older.

Um no other news, my life is rather baby and lung orientated at the moment lol. Take care
Neeshy
xxx