Hurrah! Mum escaped home for an hour tonight!! Albeit no-one knew but we literally live right beside the hospital so she was safe enough. But she came home and I washed her hair while dad went and got a chinese for dinner. It was lovely to see her and to get a cuddle. I was right about my parents can make it all ok theory. Somehow things seemed better tonight after seeing her. I am much more contented that she is OK. Bar the fact that she is going mad in hospital. A lovely patient 2 doors down is yelling. Permently. Personally I would kill her. But this is against the law so mum has had to suffer it! Her drain is still in, which we were getting worried about except the physio has since said where still needs infelated, is notoriously the hardest place to re-inflate and does take that bit longer. Why can't we get all the facts to begin with to save us worrying so much?! But she has now been able to get all 3 balls up this evening which is another huge step. She said getting her hair washed made her feel normal again, and now she knows why I like my showers and stuff so much when I'm in hospital. So hopefully the drain will be clamped tommorow and she will be home the day after if her lung behaves which it has been doing so far.

I managed to stop pain killers for my back yesterday as it wasn't too bad, it was within the manageable pain parameters. But today I woke up and my shoulder has decided that it no longer wishes to be nice. Dammit! I am going to go to the doctors tommorow after my exam. Which should be fun as I am currently typing one handed as I cannot move my arm in any shape or form, plus writing is impossible, I have tried! It should be intresting to see how I plan to write 6/7 pages tommorow without pain killers (can't take any strong ones as they make me drowsy which would make me useless to do an exam!) EEK! Natalie has suggested that this is my body's way of protesting against a hidious exam. I am inclined to agree with this! My chest has also been playing up majorly yesterday and today. Just general shortness of breath and alot of wheezeyness along with incresed gunk production. I was quite proud of one of the plugs I got up earlier. It was HUGE and very green. Me and dad marveled at it for over 10 minutes. Yes I know, we are strange! Hehe.

I mentioned a while back that with my month or so off school it was a kind of tester period. The results show that with rest and purely taking care of myself, my health stays pretty stable. This leaves me in the debate of what to do about school. I am not keen to give it up. School is somewhat of an escape for me, where I can just be me. I have always done well in school. So the thought of giving that up crushes me. It also keeps me in touch with my friends and with reality! So giving it up is not an option. I am thinking maybe cut my hours? Take one day a week off, say a Monday or a Friday so I have 3 days to rest? I'm not sure yet but will talk it over with mum and dad once mum is home. It won't be an easy choice whatever I decide to do but I know my parents and my school will be 100% behind me whatever I choose.

On a very different topic. Mum and dad were due to go to Amsterdam Wednesday week with a few friends, but mum now can't go. So me and mum have now decided that dad is going anyway and his brother is taking mum's place. He has always wanted to go so this is the perfect opportunity. This leaves me and mum at home for a few days alone. We are planning to be very girly and watch lots of girly films and eat lots of ice cream. I'm planning on taking her out to her favourite restraunt as a suprise because she's missing out on Amsterdam. So it should be fun. Plus dad will deserve a break by the time he's due to go. He's shattered now running up and down to the hospital to mum. I am taking care of the house so he doesn't have to worry about me or it, but it is still stressful for his. Especially as his mum was up this morning for some tests. She now has one thing or another wrong with every joint and limb in her body. Quite an achievement I think. She can't even take any pain killers because of her kidneys so during flare up like at the moment she is in agony and can't do very much so dad has had to run over to her house to look after her and his sister (she is disabled). Bless him he's being amazing for everyone! My parents rock! Hehe.

Hmm babbling now.
Take care all.
Xxxx.